Today was the kids first day of school. I never thought this day would come so fast where all three kids are officially enrolled in school. The excitement filled the house. Mainly from me and my husband. As we prepared all the uniforms and packed the book bags with more than a month before school started (hey what can I say we wanted to be more than ready)! We didn’t want any surprises or last minute trips to the store, we just wanted to be ahead of the game and enjoy the last days of summer vacation as a family.
As the days counted down the kids became apprehensive and yet excited to start something new. My oldest protested to be enrolled in a specific class, but I assured him that if he didn’t try it, he would never know if he liked it or not. He just needed to give it a chance. He pushed back a bit and as I reassured him, give it a month and then if you don’t like it we can change it, he was a bit more at ease and said Ok.
The first day came and the house was filled with excited kids running up and down the stairs. Breakfast cooking, kids putting on socks and shoes, making sure hairs are brushed and styled, lunch boxes are packed; all the while worship music played in the background.
As we got the kids ready my husband and I were both hands on. He got a set of book bags, I got the other school supplies that couldn’t fit in the books bags, he started to take the pictures I was not able to get and finally with time ticking we got everyone in the car and off we went to start this 2019-2020 school year journey. As we pulled in, God gave me favor. I was able to get around a long line of traffic and even park right in the front of the school office. God is so GOOD!!! We hoped out of the car and began saying our goodbyes! We prayed over the children and with smiles they kissed us, hugged us and said “Bye!”. It was the easiest release I ever experienced. Usually I am in tears as I see them off, but not this year, this year was just peaceful.
This year seemed different. I have had a “first day of school” experience for 9 years now but something about this one seemed quite different. My mom stayed overnight as it is her tradition to be with the kids on their first day of school, nothing different there. Their uniforms were pressed and book bags ready, nothing new there. I couldn’t put my finger on it. There was just a difference in peace.
At 12PM today I realized what that peace was attributed to. I received a text message and my amazing mom sent me a picture. And under the picture, it read “God has blessed you abundantly.” I stopped and looked at the picture that she took and it was exactly as she said. An abundant blessing.
“Yes, God is more than ready to overwhelm you with every form of grace, so that you will have more than enough of everything- every moment and in every way. He will make you overflow with abundance in every good thing you do.” 2 Corinthians 9:8 (TPT)
It was then that I was reminded; what God gives, I repeat what GOD gives is so good. It is complete, it is perfect. I was overwhelmed by that reminder and it brought me back to a statement that I made the night my late husband passed away. What will happen to my kids on those big days of their lives; first days of school, sweet 16, prom, graduation, wedding? Who will be there with me to celebrate these milestones? How is it possible that my kids will not have a father there? I was so overwhelmed.
That is all I needed to hear in my Spirit. “BUT God!!”
He will not let you down, He will not forsake you. He will restore even those moments in your life that you thought were hopeless… Yes HE can do it in your life! All you need to do is not be afraid to try. Just like I told Ezekiel, just TRY you never know you may just discover a new and beautiful experience but you will never know it unless you try.
As I saw Jason this morning, he was so excited and he told me in the car “I finally get to do this. I finally get to do “the first day of school” with my kids!”. His heart was overjoyed. It was giddy, it was a heart of honor and grace. I was literally flabbergasted at the sheer joy that he had. The honor of grabbing these two precious kids and without me asking, without a fake pose for social media; he grabbed them, and like an amazing Dad, walked them to their class. I was in awe when I looked at that picture that my sweet mom captured. A picture that was a sheer reflection that even though these were not his natural born children, he is still able to love them as if they were his own. God graced this man with an agape love for these children. An unmoved loved. God graced him with a father’s love. The love of a protector, the love of a guardian, the love of a selfless person.
Today was one of those many days that my Jehovah Ishi reminded me, peace be still… I got you and I got your three precious prophets. I have always had you, and I will always have you! You are my beloved and I am yours! What I give is always GOOD!