I lift up my eyes to the mountains— where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.
3 He will not let your foot slip— he who watches over you will not slumber;
4 indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The LORD watches over you— the LORD is your shade at your right hand;
6 the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.
7 The LORD will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life;
8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.
Any transition can be difficult but when the Lord says its necessary He places the right kind of people at the right time to assure you that He is working on your behalf.
As I began to plan the calendar for 2019, excitement and energy surged through me, I was ready for what the Lord was going to do in the house of HEIM (Heaven on Earth International Ministries). Ideas, sermons, discipleship, fellowship – it all was just bubbling up in me and then the Lord whispered… “It’s time”. I thought to myself… Yes, LORD time to gear up. Time to take the sackcloth off and move forward. Time to get this going… And he said again “It is Time”. I thought to myself…Time? Time for what then Jesus? “Time to let go”. It can’t be time. And He said it yet again… “It’s time. I have been preparing you for this for three years. It’s time.” And just like the famous verse in scripture, I then wept. I was reminded that there was something more that He wanted to do through me. The doors were opening and I needed to see what next season God wanted me to step into.
“Your beginnings will seem humble, so prosperous will your future be.”
I began to prepare the church little by little. The sermons that God gave me for the church became clearer and clearer to me. The importance of His timing was so essential and my obedience in that was even more crucial for my transition. I needed to understand that the next level that He had for me needed to be fulfilled. I needed to understand that what He promised over my life and for my family would come to pass. My family was waiting for the next transition, a new marriage awaited, nations awaited, women awaited, leaders awaited, my book awaited. There is so much that God has for me, so much that I was graced to walk into was waiting for me to STEP OUT, waiting for me to transition.
The journey began and God started to show me that even my dreams for HEIM it would still be fulfilled. It would not stop with me; it would still be fulfilled. That is how I knew it was God. Don’t mistake me, there were so many moments that I wept out of the Love for HEIM, out of the love for the people, out of the Love for what was built through us. But I knew that this was a God thing. I took leap of Faith sat down with beloved Pastors and began the transition. I began to see God in the mix. I began to see the vision that HEIM and I carry sitting with them. I began to see how God was orchestrating things to enhance HIS kingdom. And I was willing. I knew the day would come, I knew that God was calling me but actually stepping out the boat is the hardest thing to actually do. It takes courage. The countless nights of loss of sleep, the weight of ministry, the weight of souls it was special to me. I was precious to me- even thought for many it may not be.
The day came where I needed to tell the church and finally transition HEIM over. The day was ordained by God. It was not a day that any of us picked at first glance. It was a day that GOD ordained.
Sunday March 31stwas the day that God said to me, it is now time to give over the church to the new Pastors. And it was not until that Saturday night that I realized what day this actually was two years ago. It was the daytwo years ago that Pastor Tony went with the Lord, April 2nda Sunday afternoon after service. It was the day that he surrendered HEIM as lead Pastor. And the day that I took it. He had half of HEIM – He was the Pastor, the face, the smile of HEIM. I had the other half of HEIM. I was the backend of everything. I was the helper, I was the encourager, I would serve and fill as needed. And when he passed I stood with my half of HEIM. I took the baton and ran towards Jesus, towards the finish line. The Lord knew thought that the covenant that Pastor and I had with HEIM needed to be surrendered by BOTH parties.
See this was a God thing, this was a supernatural thing. March 31strepresented that same day two years ago (two representing unity)to the day that now it was my turn. I needed to surrender my part of HEIM in order for HEIM to go to the next level.
And so I did. With tears flowing down my eyes from Saturday evening all the way to the moment I told the church Sunday afternoon- I stood there and released with honor and love the very thing that God placed in my hands to hold until it was time, the Role of Lead Pastor of HEIM.
It was not easy and the enemy tried so hard to make me feel unqualified and even a failure. Many people had commented on how I failed and how I was not him but God reminded me over and over again, it was not Pastor Tony’s church. It was the Lord’s Church. HEIM was a kingdom dream that was channeled through USto birth out. The Legacy is Honoring Jesus! It was not Pastor Tony’s request for me to take HEIM. It was the Lord’s. What I did in these last two years was show a church: a fighter, a Lioness, how to be fierce and how to LOVE Jesus. How to show the enemy this church has a destiny and I will hunt for that destiny as the Lioness does. How to serve even in the midst of pain and agony. How to serve Jesus even when I felt broken, how to love others even broken. How to keep moving even when people wanted to break you more. How to Honor even when they forgot my birthday. How to love even when they forgot to love His treasures. God showed me how to keep running the race as painful as it was until HE said “It is time”. It is my honor and privilege to serve the King. HEIM I see greatness and I will keep reaching nations for Jesus as you send me!! and when Ezekiel is ready – HEIM will be ready for him.
“In His kindness God called you to share in his eternal glory by means of Christ Jesus. So after you have suffered a little while, He will restore, support, and strengthen you, and He will place you on a firm foundation.”
1 Peter 5:10